Grand Opening - Finding Magick

At some point I stopped believing in magick. When I was a child I read many fantasy books and loved stories and mythology - and I was raised in a religion that I firmly believed in. Eventually my faith in the details of that religion faded, and so did my belief in magick and, at least a bit, meaning in general. It left a void, that I was only somewhat aware of.

I won’t share the details yet, but life took a difficult turn and my perspective was turned on its head. I experienced psychosis, and spent a while in and out of various states of consciousness. One of my favorite poets, Fariha Róisín, writes

Funny, how chronic pain is both the wound and the opening.

I think it’s this way for psychic and emotional pain as well. We experience something that breaks down the way we used to see the world, and leaves us reeling and untethered. It shatters our illusions.

Since that experience I’ve been discovering magick. It likes to hide away - the mundane has a way of absorbing it and diffusing it. It requires attention and an open mind to see and live in. The world has gotten stranger, richer, deeper. Sometimes darker. Sometimes brighter than I can express.

I want to bring more magick to my life and to those around me and around the world who find themselves stuck in the mundane.

This is terrifying for me. There’s an Aesop’s Fable worth reading about a frog who tries to cure others but can’t cure himself. I associate this with the phrase - “physician heal thyself”. And the lesser known, “magician, know thyself”.

How can I be qualified to perform readings for people when I am less-than-whole, not-enlightened, broken, etc etc etc?

The way I see it, we learn from each other. We are here in this strange experience together, trying to understand it and ourselves. I will continue to research and explore and hone my abilities here, and hopefully in sharing them I can grow to understand myself and my place in everything on a deeper level.

As I step into this world, I’ll share more over time about my experiences with magick and how to find it in your life. I won’t share everything though. Some things are best kept near the heart, and magick - at least some paths of it - can often be a solo journey.

I’m here for the balance of community and solo exploration, and theory and solo practice.